Saturday, April 19, 2014

Strength for Today and Bright Hope for Tomorrow

I am so glad that God is my strength for today and my bright hope for tomorrow!  When you've lost your way, when things are going well, God is somehow working out His plan in all of it.

"Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow" has been a personal theme of mine for a while now.  It goes well with one of my favorite songs by Rend Collective Experiment called "My Lighthouse" [click here to see all the words]

I won't fear what tomorrow brings
With each morning I'll rise and sing
My God's love will lead me through
You are the peace in my troubled sea

I wanted to share with you some things that I'm rising and singing about these days - my bright hopes for tomorrow".

First up, the clinic!  When I left in December, they were still leveling the land.  Now, it's well underway!

Some people who have been working really hard on the construction of the clinic (Dave Shirk not pictured although he has worked quite tirelessly on the clinic):

Biaia

Tamba

Pedru

The inside corridor

A bush started growing in the floor of the clinic.  If it hadn't been dug out, it would have broken the cement of the floor. This is an extremely resilient plant.

Fitting the windows.

Ever since I've set foot in Catel, people have been asking me when I'm going to start up English lessons again.  I too, was getting anxious to start.  I picked up my tub of books on April 16 in southern Senegal and decided to grab some sandpaper and chalkboard paint while I was at it.  Now, I will have a "brand new" chalk board to start a new school year off with.  And finally, there is an announcement taped to the cashew tree (which is the Catel equivalent to Grand Central Station) inviting all interested parties to join me for an English School organizational meeting on April 21 at 7pm in the church.  School is starting soon and I am SO EXCITED!!!

In case you were wondering, this was a piece of wood painted and disguised to look like a chalkboard.  As you can see, I am "ALMOST DONE".

My "classroom", which will soon be packed with students in the evening hours.

This is also the church in case you didn't know.  We're often very thankful for the more "open air" feel on a hot, Sunday morning.

Ah, yes!  It is because of Jesus that I have bright hope for tomorrow!  Happy Easter!

Sunday, April 13, 2014

Exploded Oatmeal and Other Stuff

It feels good to be home.  I am thankful to report that the trip was relatively un-eventful.  Unfortunately, my bicycle got all the way to the airport, but had to make the return trip to my parents' house because of baggage restrictions.   Ah, dear bicycle, do not fret. We will soon be re-united.

I was seriously wondering how I was going to manage both my bags on my final leg of my journey from northern to southern Senegal (I discovered that I no longer have the muscle that I left Guinea Bissau with), when God surprised me with an awesome solution!  Some of my missionary friends who live in southern Senegal were staying at the very same guesthouse in northern Senegal, and offered to take one of my bags in their truck (free of charge!) if I was willing to wait 2 weeks for it.  No problem!  Who was I kidding?  I wasn't going to start teaching English in these first two weeks anyways.  So...  I unpacked to repack again, putting all my books (which probably comprised 2/3 of the weight I brought) in the tub to come later.


What I found when I opened my suitcase gave me a start!  Do you know what 7 pounds of oatmeal looks like exploded in your suitcase?  Well, I didn't either.  Apparently it didn't matter that I had double bagged it.  

I saw that I had two choices - to cry or to laugh.  Oatmeal is very precious here, but I decided not to think about what my life would be like trying to clean all that out of my suitcase later.  I chose to laugh.  I mean seriously - it was EVERYWHERE!  


Crisis averted, joy overwhelmed me as I made my last and final descent into southern Senegal.  Not only was I still quietly giggling about the oatmeal ALL OVER my suitcase, but I was just downright giddy with excitement.  I was finally home.


Monday, March 31, 2014

The day before

You'd think I'd have myself together by now.... I mean, I do have about 12 hours to go until I leave my parents' house and start the journey back home to Guinea Bissau.

And what started out as a good effort with good intentions and a good attitude has now turned south (Lancaster County phrase meaning things are now quite the opposite).

This is the pile of STUFF.... to the right are things I have to (re) pack...
and I'm sure my mother would appreciate if I put the boxes and clothes (at left) in storage.

I can hear you asking, "And...why are you stopping to write this blog post?"  My answer is pretty simple.  I feel like a lot of people have unrealistic ideas of what it's like to be a "missionary".. As if somehow that title means that you have your life together or something.  As if somehow, by being a missionary, you have achieved some level of spiritual maturity, submissiveness to God's plan or just plain down guts.  And I just wanted to tell you that that is not me.  The person sitting on the other side of the computer screen is far from that.

Let me give you a picture of what the real me looks like.  In the last week I have:

- had some pretty major arguments with my family
- averted minor disaster that resulted from me accidentally downloading a computer virus
- came home to my brother in pain and with a messed up knee
- forgot about renewing my visa
- packed
- unpacked
- repacked
- unpacked again because I realized my one bag was overweight
- have had excited conversations with teammates and friends in GB
- have had really sad goodbyes with friends in the states
- said goodbye to my sisters when they were in for the weekend
- froze in PA (and then saw that it's 97 degrees in GB)
- had the very odd experience of getting my first pedicure... by myself
- taught/spoke at 5 different schools (from elementary to university)
- gone for about 5 "last minute" trips to Wal-Mart
- read 3 novels on my Kindle
- drank about 1 pot of coffee (per day)
- pigged out on things simply because I knew I would likely not eat them within the next two years
- tagged along for supper with my parents at Weaverland's "Guess Who's Coming for Dinner"
- walked into a bank 15 minutes before it closed to take care of some "last minute things" (and didn't walk out until almost 45 minutes after closing hours
- and have not made time for daily devotions.

...among many other things, of course.

And that's what my life looks like right now.

Yup.  It's kind of messy.

Here's to an evening of (re) packing while listening to Rend Collective and having a better attitude!  "See" you on the other side of of the ocean!

Monday, February 3, 2014

The (2nd Annual) Village Experience

It's 3 o'clock in the afternoon on Saturday, February 1st; I stand amazed, watching my team move so efficiently.  It's "the Village Experience," but this part is very unlike my "village experience".  Hardly ever do things move so efficiently where I live in Guinea Bissau.  Everything is people/relationship oriented not event/task oriented.

Everything set up and food ready with time to spare.  The whole team gathers for prayer.  People arrive.  The fun begins for our (approximately) 200 guests (my fun started several weeks ago, planning for this event).

The invitation, designed by a talented support team member!

Guests were welcomed into a busy environment with Guinensi music, a bag of cashews, and a blurb about what to expect for the evening.

Early comers check out the silent auction items.

 The food team gets ready behind the scenes!

Look at those beautiful, happy faces midst slight chaos!  

T brings out the food to hungry guests.


Meanwhile, I enjoyed reconnecting with Bob and Anna Mae Weaver; Anna Mae is Beryl Forrester's sister (Beryl was the pioneer missionary of our mission in Catel).

I also enjoyed talking with retired East African missionary LeRoy Petersheim!

People of all ages enjoyed exploring the Education Stations. The stations included a tour of my house, explanation of cashew production/processing, what kind of food we eat and what's in our stores, what kinds of animals are found in Guinea Bissau, and a display on water.

The animal display.


There was also a dress up bin.  Looks like "Little I" found it!

"Little J" found it too!

Guests enjoy the juice bar, warga (local tea), food, and fellowship.

"Little C" enjoyed eating West African pumpkin stew over rice out of a communal bowl with his siblings and daddy.

I help "Little J" get his watermelon, banana, orange, and cantaloupe fruit salad. 

After everyone had their fill, and got their silent auction bids in for the MANY items we had for sale, the program started (followed by an engaging question and answer session).



A huge thank you to everyone who helped set up and coordinate, as well as to all our guests who came out! 
(Thank you also to my photographers: Floyd Huber and Juanita Huber)

-A-

Monday, January 6, 2014

Is life ever "normal"? Part 2

When a well-meaning welcomer heralds me with "It must be nice to be home", it catches me... every time.

Where is my home really?  Yes, my nuclear family is currently living in the states, and I definitely enjoy spending quality time with them, but I have a close-knit family on the other side of the Atlantic Ocean too.  It looks a little different, sure.  I have teammates and friends instead of brothers and sisters, but family none-the-less.

And though my skin color will always point out to Guinensis that I'm not native to Guinea Bissau, I fit in really well.  The culture feels comfortable to me.  Since being in the states, I have felt really disoriented not having face-to-face people interactions from sun up to sun down.

It's disappointing to me to find that a lot of people's "family time" is whittled down to several hours sitting next to each other in front of a screen.  Quality time (to me) looks more like hanging out or accomplishing a task together (I purposely didn't say "doing something together" for fear someone would argue that watching TV is doing something).  I don't know.  Maybe you've found a way to relationally engage the person you're sitting with while you're both holding iPhones, texting someone else.  I am not that talented.  Additionally, I find trying to keep up with people's conversations about trending TV shows that I've not watched utterly exhausting...  I actually didn't mean for this to be an anti-screen rant... I digress.

My cousin Amber and me at my grandma's house.

The disorienting experience of "where is home?" continues...
I find my state of disorientation is exaggerated on a Sunday morning - what to wear?  "Now, how could such a trivial matter send you into a state of bewilderment?" you ask.  Let me preface by saying that I was never super trendy.  I have my sisters to thank for anything remotely trendy in my wardrobe.

My dilemma on a Sunday morning becomes, "Do I wear what I'm comfortable in and stick out like a sore thumb or do I begin the arduous process of mixing and matching practically every article of clothing I own to find something considered 'acceptable' under the scrutiny of even amateur fashion police?"

What I would rather do, more than anything else, is to throw on a tank top, flip-flops, and a wrap-around skirt (which happens to be made of bright African fabric).  Not only is this an inappropriate choice of outfit for the "coldest temperatures of the decade" that we're experiencing right now, it screams "Hello!  I'm a missionary!" all over it.  When you want to fit in on so many levels, drawing that much attention to yourself doesn't really help.

The view looking out our back door towards our barn.  If you are like me and don a hoodie when the temps dip into the low 80's, this is cold... just saying.

Above all else though, I'm confused about how to live dependent on Jesus here in the states.  Does that sound weird for a missionary to say?  Don't put me on a pedestal - I'm human too.  Let me give you a few examples of what I mean.

I am usually reliant on God to allow me to sleep during the hot, sticky nights of the rainy/dry season transition months.  Here in the states, I live in a very comfortable climate-controlled house.

I am usually reliant on God for the availability of vegetables in the market.  On the other hand, I just ate a pack of baby carrots this morning... and there's more where that came from!

I am usually reliant on God for a semi-timely transportation vehicle that has at least a foot of space for me to sit on.  Contrastingly, I just jumped in the car and drove (with just me in the car and not me and 40 other people) to my dentist and eye doctor appointments today - without even praying about it.

Do you see what I mean?  I'm not turning to God for these small elements of life.  Things are so at my fingertips here that I have to mentally remind myself frequently, I am STILL fully reliant on God.

Back to the basics.

So... This is me trying to live life while I'm in the states.  I reflect back on my original question, "Is life ever 'normal'?"

Pressing on.

A

Is life ever "normal"?

I could go on and on writing under the title "Is life ever 'normal'?".  Seriously.  In fact, I might when I write my second post later today.

In the meantime, I thought I would let my readers (especially those who don't live in my area) a head's up as to why I am all of a sudden writing from the states.  Yup!  I'm currently writing from the comforts of our wood stove heated basement, and I feel like a piglet under a heat lamp - it's cold outside!

The following is a letter that was sent church family (written mid-December), but since many of you were praying for me during this time, I felt it appropriate to post it here.  Sorry.  No pictures.  You'll have to wait until post number 2 of the day.



How does it so often seem that things don’t go according to plan?  At least, with these sudden changes in plan, we have opportunities to practice flexibility, graciousness, and resiliency.

As many of you may have heard, my December did not exactly go as I would have planned it.  I owe it to you, the people who have my back stateside, to give you a few more details about what landed me in the states on medical leave.

Late November, I noticed a boil on my right shoulder.  I had experienced boils before during this past rainy season, and it is not an uncommon problem (locals and my teammates alike have struggled with boils as well).  I treated it like I had any other boil, with betadine, Neosporin, Band-Aids and hot compresses.  This one, however, was not going away.  After my shoulder had swelled up to a point that I lost arm mobility and I spiked a fever, I started on antibiotics. 

The next few days were a bit of a blur and filled with unmet expectations.  My teammates had taken me to a hospital in a nearby town where my friend is a doctor.  He drained it, did some blood tests, added some meds, and sent me home to recover.  When I was not recovering, my team decided to take me across the border into a town in Senegal, where I would have better access to medical facilities.  After spending over almost 2 hours draining my abscess, the doctor there told us that the infection was beyond him and we needed to go to the capital of Senegal (Dakar).  By this time, the infection had tunneled and was suspected to be septic. 

Thinking that I just needed a little time to rest, etc., I had already refused going to Ziguinchor (the town in Senegal just across the border).  I was absolutely adamant about not flying to Dakar.  Those who know me really well, know that I can be quite thick-headed (err…  stubborn) at times, and it was only because I did not really have a choice in the matter that I landed in Dakar.  I traveled with our team nurse and a retired missionary who acted as our translator (Senegal, unlike the former Portuguese-colonized Guinea Bissau, was a French territory, and therefore we needed to rely on someone else to help us get around since neither Delores or I speak French).

The night we landed in Dakar, the doctors operated – complete with anesthesia and everything.  They made a deep incision in an effort to get all the infection out.  Within 8 hours, I was in the OR again for a second surgery.  After 5 days in the hospital, I was released.  The doctor team was not as excited as I was at the prospect of me being able to go back to Guinea Bissau.  Though they promised to re-evaluate at my follow-up, I was advised not to leave Dakar (unless I was going to America) until my wound completely healed up because of the great risk of complication and re-infection (in addition to the lack of good medical facilities) in Guinea Bissau.  That could take 4-6 WEEKS!  There was no way I wanted to spend my birthday and Christmas away from family and friends (which includes teammates who feel like my family).

Talk started flying around about the possibility of me flying back with a work team who had been working in Catel (the village where I live) during the duration of my hospital stay.  I started praying that there would not be any tickets on that flight.  You see, because I fully expected to return the same day I left Catel,  I did not get to say goodbye to any friends, wrap up any projects, or sort through my stuff to get ready for my furlough (scheduled to start January 9th).  There was a lot that I needed to process yet.  During a phone conversation with my regional director, I was handed a note that said there was a seat on the flight and I could even go all the way to Harrisburg.  Though I had been sure that I was not going back to America, the thought had entered my mind that if there did end up being a seat on the plane, God was probably preparing a way for me to go.

Here I am.  Almost a week after being in the states.  I am healing slowly-by-slowly and regaining strength day by day.  Only after I got here did I realize how seriously sick I actually was.  Because of the swelling and spread of infection, my airway was very close to being blocked.  Since being back, I have also seen my open incision for the first time (which is nasty – I’ll spare you the details).  I am thankful to God for sparing my life and for the opportunity I have to not only be near to very good medical facilities, but to be able to spend my birthday and Christmas with my family. 

No, things did not happen as I would have preferred them to.  Goodbyes to my Guinea Bissau friends were said over Skype and static-y phone calls.  My team had to pack up my room and send me my suitcase to fly back to the states.  I wasn’t expecting to be back for another month, so gifts weren’t bought, etc.  BUT, I have much to be thankful for!

I will resume my previously scheduled furlough activities in early-mid January, and will be doing speaking engagements as well as catching up with supporters until late February.  If all goes according to plan (do things ever go according to plan?) and funds come in on time, I will be heading back to Guinea Bissau in early March for another two years. 

I pray that as we turn our focus back to work and "normal life", that we don’t lose sight of the genuine lifestyle of Christmas.  Of course I don’t mean the busyness, the decorations, the gifts or the family dinners… those are the “extras” that we’ve tacked onto Christmas.  What I mean is the daily lifestyle of celebration – we can be freed because “Though he [Jesus] was God, he did not think of equality with God as something to cling to.  Instead, he gave up his divine privileges; he took the humble position of a slave and was born as a human being.  When he appeared in human form, he humbled himself in obedience to God and died a criminal’s death on a cross.” (Philippians 2:6-8 NLT, emphasis mine)


Blessings!

A

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Gifts

God gives us small gifts everyday.  Do you recognize them?  For me, life can get so busy that the gifts just pass me by, and I miss out on them.

Yesterday though, I enjoyed having three 4-6 year olds braid my hair.  It was pretty awesome.
Mbale, Sadju, and Micah braiding my hair

The end product (notice the little pink butterfly barrette)!

Me with one of my hairdressers, MBale.

Thank you, God, for little girls!